Tuesday, May 1, 2012

New Mother on Mother's Day!


Well Mother's Day is right around the corner and this will be my first since having my now 6-month old. It's been a whirl wind ride...ups and downs, confusion, frustration, fear and worry....but also unimaginable joy and happiness and knowing a love I never knew I was capable of.....


This kind of love reminds me in a way of Frida Kahlo's The Two Fridas....
Only my son holds my life blood and sometimes my very breath....it's like we are two halves of one whole....it's an amazing, powerful love that words cannot explain....it's like holding your heart in your mouth

Motherhood is the one damn hardest things I've ever done....nearly 26 hours of (mostly) non-medicated labor (no epidural) before culminating in a c-section, the pain, adjustment, second guessing, fear and complete emotional break down before being lifted up into a all encompassing love...

Mothers, women, their journeys, struggles, loves and losses....mean so much to me now....I've never been much of a girly girl and I'm still not and I've never really had great female relationships either...with family or friends ....but there is bond between all women I think...a bond stretching back all the way the Eve, there's a well of strength and perseverance that allows women to carry on....

I'm proud to be a mother...

3 comments:

Emily said...

Couldn't have described motherhood any better, myself! Congratulations on motherhood! And I am still enjoying my 14 year old only son and am in awe, everyday, at how much love I have inside my heart for that boy. It's an amazing ride :) Happy Mother's Day!

Emily said...

Couldn't have described motherhood any better, myself! Congratulations on motherhood! And I am still enjoying my 14 year old only son and am in awe, everyday, at how much love I have inside my heart for that boy. It's an amazing ride :) Happy Mother's Day!

dalaimomma said...

You are an amazing artist and an amazing mother! It only gets better my friend!